January 28, 2016

I'm simply a child trapped in adult life
Forced to accept the inevitable fate

I'm the victim of my own feeling
Craving for a little sense of belonging

I'm the prisoner of my own thinking
Struggling to live the way I want

I'm the guardian of my heart
Protect what's already broken before it disappear

I'm the foolish who always smile
While my heart being ripped apart

January 20, 2016


I feel my physical strength decline as I become older. And I start to hate sweating.

I hate running and prefer walking. But going out means I have to change clothes. Such pain in the ass. Yea, I know I'm only twenties but still.... That leaves me with indoor activity. so I choose yoga.
But I don't go to a class because as I stated that requires me to changes clothes. Fortunately there's an app in my phone that can help me to practice yoga at my own room. Although I have to move all the thing to make a room since my room is so small. It's fun though. You can choose your preferable class and mostly the basic class are free. Yeay! *give me applause*

Download for your android phone here! :)

Afternoon surprise

Surprise birthday gift from my beloved friend Ade, who apparently read my wishlist :)
She didn't say anything about sending any package and when it came I thought "I haven't order anything online, have I?"


Here some application for your android phone to make your miserable life slightly better. It's free, but you should pay for more feature. But their free version satisfying enough for me.

Self Improvement Apps

2.Habit Bull
3.Expense Manager

January 7, 2016

death is better

Sometime being left behind because of death is better                      
Because death gives them no option to saying goodbye
And even though it's sucks it doesn't hurt so much
On the other hands, when someone left you behind when they're still breathing is more painful, because they have choices. And they choose to left you. For whatever reason it is.

January 5, 2016

Family affair

I always tell anyone about my family, because it's really big family. So there's a lot story to tell. But I rarely tell about my family affair.
As about my private matters I don't really tell people. If they don't ask, I won't tell. Even to my family, especially my family. Because when you have 5 older sibling, basically you have no privacy. And I tried to confided to a friend. But the next day everyone in our class already know my story. So, that's it. Unless someone begging to know and they swear that it's going to their grave I'm not telling.

January 3, 2016

New Year/ Birthday Wishlist

Upper left : Real technique brush
Lower left : Coloring book for adult
Upper right : A really cool sweatshirt
Lower right : Laptop bag 

January 2, 2016

I believe "everything happen for a reason"

Every time something happen to me I always looking for a reason. Did I done something good or did I done something bad. Does it make me learn something. But sometime I can't explain it at all.